Wish I were good at writing.
Maybe I could do something else with my life if I were that creative.
I have no idea what I’m doing with my life. I need advice. I need to talk to people.
I work way too much. I thought I could handle working more because it would lessen financial stress. But instead of financial stress, I’m now dealing with immense emotional/physical/mental stress.
Both my jobs are very different from each other. The only similarity is that they both deal with customer service.
#1) Medeco. A medical equipment refurbishing company. It’s small and local. My title is Sales Administrator, I deal with Ebay sales (supposed to handle our website) and something that’s being built for customer contact - aka outbound calls/email followups. There are two owners, but one that I answer to (Tim).
What I like: It gives steady day time hours and we’re closed over holidays and weekends. Most of the guys are cool, and laid back. It’s small, but growing. I also get paid $12 with room to grow.
What I don’t like: It’s disorganized (though not according to Tim), and… I deal with Tim. Tim doesn’t know how to stay on task. He also can’t chew gum and walk at the same time… I wish I were joking. He treats me like I’m slow. (Example: When learning about how to sell on Ebay, he LITERALLY started at how to buy as a customer, drawing diagrams like, “Ok, here we are as the seller. Now a buyer comes along to our page and clicks ‘Buy Now’…”)
I feel like I’m a rag doll being thrown in all different directions at once, and can’t stay on one task at a time.
The business is difficult and it’s one I don’t know. Actually, I don’t know much of how to do anything they want me to so I have a huge learning curve.
I also hold quite a bit of responsibility… which gives me more room to be at fault if things go wrong, and having to describe in detail, clearly and precisely to Tim is nerve wracking and difficult. He will drill sergeant my ass to the moon and it’s uncomfortable.
I’m sure I could go on. But next is…
#2) Whole Foods. Everyone knows what that is.
What I like: I like my actual work. I love the people I work with. I don’t really have that much responsibility, but when I get more, it’s at a slow pace that allows me to get comfortable one step at a time. I get free product.
What I don’t like: It’s a corporation. The higher I go the more stress. They nit-pick their team leaders and specialists (which is what I’d need to become at some point. I make barely over $10 an hour at part time… i need full time. My boss is spacey and likes to throw a lot of responsibility onto other team members without the pay.
I work at night, which means I can’t do much else.
What do I do? I need 1 job. ONE JOB. During the week there are normally 4 days in a row where I work 9-1 then 5:30 - 10:30. By the end, no joke, I’m incredibly depressed, I hate my life and want to die. Just to put it bluntly. I don’t get enough me time, unwinding time or sleep.
I can’t keep doing this.
Todays my one day off.
So far I think Im spending it right :) I have a kitty sleeping on my right arm so I can only type with my left hand.